Stressful Week

Wow what a mental week its exam week here at uni *sigh*. Although I only have one exam Ive been extremely stressed eating anything I can find.....(not even exaggerating)

 Hopefully once this exam is over I can start on trying to become someone I want to be :) here's hoping. I think I'm more nervous about failing as it could stop me from returning in September which would be horrible for me    :(.

 Hopefully come tomorrow my routine can start and il feel healthy if anyone knows any good routines or anything please comment :) .

My Thinsperation

Although fasting is not my thing I'm not giving up on becoming someone beautiful. My friends call me their girly indie hippie girl, but what they see and what I see is very different. But looking at these boho hippie women I know I can be happy once Ive achieved my goal.

Epic fail

I couldnt even last 1 day had to eat myself silly :( feel very down about it :(

Green Tea Fast ... day 1!

Well I'm trying a green tea fast for a few days to clear out my system (lovely) Green Tea is very healthy and well known to help with the body. I hope after the first few days I will feel a bit emptier as I'm so bloated lately :)

 After last night and my feeling extremely sorry for my self I have realised that with this goal and even trying to feel a bit better I did not cry at all last night :) hopefully I will start to feel like me again...

New step in my life, time to say goodbye to self loathing ...

Well Ive finally come to a point in my life where I cry at every picture of myself  I see, I eat because I feel empty all the time. I'm just at the stage of either becoming a blob or doing something about it. I'm already vegetarian but as from tomorrow not only am I going 100% Vegan (I'm halfway there) but I'm also giving up drink (which is hard for a uni student ).

 Although I have AMAZING friends here at university, I feel alone always alone and just disgusted with the way I am. I hope once I have completed my goal I will be able to smile and date as I haven't in a long time as I feel that who would be with me? I'm just hoping people online will not judge me or tell me off but support me and help me overcome this feeling of self hate.